The Last time I crying

The last time I crying about my last moments with my best friend. Wawa are painful, even though we still talk. I remember spending the night at her house before I left. I still feel the pain of holding back tears because we both swore not to cry. We knew we would see each other again. Saying good bye would solidify the fact that I was moving away even I still crying . I still don’t know how I had the power to just walk away, knowing that I wouldn’t see her. She was the person who stood by me through my darkest hour, and now she wasn’t going to be there for me in my new dark hours that lied ahead.

After leaving my school at Sekolah Menengah Teknik Muadzam Shah, Rompin Pahang was one of the easier things to do, in comparison to leaving wawa but it doesn’t mean it was an easy task to do. I cried three, almost four, times on the last day of school. Walking away from wawa felt like my stomach was being ripped into pieces. I never felt so connected to a whole group of people. These crazy people were a hodge-podge of people, all of the miss-fits, everybody who didn’t fit in. But we were a team.

The weeks that lead up to my move are hard to talk about it, still. Those moments that I hold so dear to my heart still burn inside. The pain is still there even more vivid if possible. I can’t shake the feelings I have. I can’t rid myself of the memories, so I just hold them dear. I don’t forget, not because I cannot, but because I will not. I refuse to let those memories go. I can’t just those tears I cried go to waste. I will forever flashback to the day I sat in my closet and cried about moving.

Now, when I study at Polisas I get many friends. And I love all my friend. I don't to crying again about my friends. It's so pain.

About my self

Hello!! ¿Como está ?

I have to say something about myself. Sometimes it is hard to introduce yourself because you know yourself so well that you do not know where to start with. Let me give a try to see what kind of image you have about me through my self-description.

My name is raja nur syakirah binti raja osman. But everyone can called my nick name is la.I’m a girl and I was born on 06 November, 1991 in Kuantan Pahang. I lived in Rompin, Pahang most of my life except between the ages of after I was born until 10 years old when my family moved to the Rompin, Pahang for my father working as Land surveyor.

I have two sisters, one brother and only one younger sister. My brother, Raja Azlan working at Felda as field officer (plantation). He has 1 child while my sister, Raja Nor Firdaus is housewife and his stay at Kelantan after married and his also have 3 children. All his children are female. About another my sister Raja Nurshafarin his still was studying at Universiti malaysia Pahang degree with a major in civil engineering and lastly about my younger sister, Raja Nur Fizzatul his still enjoying life after UPSR 2010.

About my life, I am a person who is positive about every aspect of life. There are many things I like to do, to see, and to experience. I like to read, I like to write, I like to think, I like to dream, I like to talk, I like to listen. I like to see the sunrise in the morning, I like to see the moonlight at night, I like to feel the music flowing on my face, I like to smell the wind coming from the ocean. I like to look at the clouds in the sky with a blank mind, I like to do thought experiment when I cannot sleep in the middle of the night. I like flowers in spring, rain in summer and leaves in autumn. I like to sleep early, I like to get up late, I like to be alone, I like to be surrounded by people. I like country’s peace, I like the beautiful west lake in Hangzhou,. I like delicious food and comfortable shoes; I like good books and romantic movies. I like the land and the nature, I like people. And, I like to laugh.

First of all I'd like to confess, I'm not a helicopter designer also not a pilot but I'm a second year Engineering Architecture student at the Politeknik Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah Kuantan, Pahang. I like my major is Architecture. Because because, with design of the built . Architecture controls the only environement that humans has complete control over and can modelate any way as my father says in this respect it symbolizes creation and with that comes responsibility to do right which of course seems to be missing a lot in today's architecture. That way I love my way as architect. I will meet all my father's dream.

Lastly, I love my self, my family, my friend and all my teacher’s because without all of you whom I here.